life is beautiful :) and it can just get better and more SavVy :) :)

Back to the square one... loving life and living it.. missing some people who have just gone missing from my life... Ko if you ever read this .. drop me a sms.. miss you putt !

Somehow have this belief that things are gonna work out exactly the way i thought it would... fingers crossed. One thing accomplished for sure.. another one remains..and i know time will come for that too... just feel blessed with all the people around in my life at the moment... listening to tera hona laga hoon in the background ..and i guess most people who know me or who will read this would know who im thinking about at this point in time :)

there is still a bigger decision to be made.. and i know as awlays God will show me the way ... just wanna thank my family and god and everyone who i know loves me unconditionally ! :)

huggz and love to one and all :)

decisions

yes I did make .... a life changing one .. but it was not to be... and i know ill stick to what the end result of my decision was.... hoping and praying for the best for everyone :)

crash and burn

I love this savage garden song :)

watever..that aside ..

Been really ages since I wrote… surely was too busy and occupied with something nice that happened in my life… had so many thoughts over the time to pen down .. but not the time to do so..coz the time was dedicated to something else. No regrets..no hard feelings… bitter sweet experience… but one of the most memorable xmas for reasons good and bad…

Still wonder about the order in which all events unfolded around me… and wonder if this is what I deserved.. but learnt a lesson ..that I can be who I always was as a human again…and thanks god and ppl responsible for that…I know im gonna continue like this. Life has something for me.. the box of chocolates that I need to open and enjoy. Do no harm..be good…and I wanna learn how to control my emotions… and yes neither of the people involved were wrong .. But just difference of perception and action…

Roller coaster that last couple of months were… I had some amazing moments to remember and cherish. And I don’t think I’ll forget them in my life.. coz not sure…rather don’t care about how anyone perceived me and my actions during this time.. coz I was dedicated to the task on my hand.. and I was honest and sincere… but just ended up being mis-understood…
I have to sit down… listen to songs.. live my life… sort out my inner self and live…

I’m not sure if this was the way everything was to turn out… but all I know is our universe works in a perfect order… and everything unfolds exactly the way it’s supposed to …. Coz we are just helpless puppets of the thing called destiny and of the act called Karma … I think got my retribution….

I’m back to myself, met some wonderful souls and had some unforgettable moments.. and that’s the blessing out of it all… and that’s really good enough… over the years I have matured enough to live my life remembering the good times…and that’s what I’m gonna do …

Feels weird that this is such an abrupt write up … but I know I wanna remember this time one way or the other… and as I said only for the good things …

Blessings and best wishes to all who were on this roller coaster ride… and not to think about we came down … coz only we came down thats why we went up again J

To sweet memories and the fresh breath of air I have back in the way I live my life… Thanks and I’ll be there…

SK – thanks as always for being there J sorry for being stupid about being scared that my friend would be taken away..and ill be back in touch when I have burnt away the quires…ok enough of my emo crap …

To just quote the tag line of my all time favourite series…One Tree Hill
“People always leave” … and to add on … we don’t meet till we part …

God bless and spread the love!

Feeling blessed … nostalgic… and still wondering…

Had a fab bday .. beyond expectations for sure…
Had my phone ringing till 3 AM in the morning ..woke up to 70 odd sms’s and 8 missed calls…
Then had so many wall posts on my fb … overwhelmed for sure…

A friend got angry that I did not put the name in my tribute… puppy below J

But in my first post I wrote I hope im not forgetting anyone below….
I did .. and I feel bad about it … I was threatened I am never reading your blog again!!! Oh well.. all I can say is im sorry …. Wasn’t intentional and really was overwhelmed with the information overload!!!

I think I have literally forgotten how to celebrate birthdays.. maybe im just plainly not interested or maybe coz to me everyday is a celebration… live life… you only get it once!!!

Not used to birthday gifts..cakes..etc etc… still so touched by the pic lya made for me …a and the good wishes she put in .. I posted it below… such a sweetheart she is!! May she get the dream man of her life --- Shahrukh khan urf motu !!! J

Had long talks with ma and pa .. was wonderful got a bit emotional but well..thats the stupid sensitive me… J
Bro was as cool as ever… “paaji vadaiyaan … buddhe ho gaye” (congrats elder bro – u are an old man now)

I missed talking to someone yesterday though .. and lets not forget … master din even wish me !!!!! reason --- I forgot your bday !!!

Ekta – couldn’t reach my phone … when I called never picked up …. Ah but she did wish me J

An d yeah am wondering …. Wondering on what life has for me … I know I have a lot for life … but I dun really know what more surprises it has up its sleeves.. I was expecting smthign major since last Friday but that din happen and I think its not gonna happen either …. So have to keep on wondering … but then again to heck with it … coz I just wanna live happily and not just merely exist..

Been at the height of homesickness… not sure when am I getting to go there again…..
Last proper holiday was in march 08…
November last year too short..
Jan this year 2 days …
I think I need to go there…

Till then just wait .. feel happy and blessed … nostalgic and keep wondering J

I really dun go through moments to make my life.. its these moments that make my lifeJ
Love and peace !!!

and the best bday present .....

Thanks lya :) much love n huggzz ... and yeah my prayers are always with you k ??

i forgot to mention puppy

damnnn i feel bad ... how could have i not mentioned her.. damnnn im sorry darlzzzz

u are too sweet to be forgotten ... though i know im being a dirty lil b**** to be wiritng this only after i just got your mssg on gtlak... but know that u are important :)

feel loved and blessed

im not too sure what to write ... just overwhelmed ....

there are some special ppl i wanna thank for their wishes ....

parents without doubt ..

woke up with dad;s bday call !! and my bro who was one of the last to wish me ... stil love him though :)

koko to be the first one who wished me ... and she's been there for me i know..though at times she vanishes.. but i think i understand ...

tiddi

sania

lya -- thanks for the beautiful pic :)

motto -- thanks for everything ..

my 2 new msian friends

nadia el farida and tania for a lovely pre bday celeb on sunday

one and all who wished me bday .. even tho it was coz of fb reminders!!

amol for remembering it :)

ekta --- ul always be special :)

bixie --- always loved :)

and that sweet person in my life who has been unusually busy today but wished me happy bday four times... lol :)

simmo ..chun chee and chhavi for being there inspite of not being there :) much love :)

my beautiful stranger for the beautiful card she sent me !!!

kunal for the most remarkable bday message ... ::"happy birthday fool. hope you dont remember anything tomorow."::

lolzz

hot mama for a wonderful sat evening under the stars talking about everything

you all indeed made it a day worth remembering , emotional and overwhelmed!!!

hope i din miss out anyone :)

love ya all

thanking god for all the wonderful peeps in my life :)

must be good karma of my parents .... :)

some pics from Sat nite :)

morning poet??

Nt sure dimaag mein kya chal raha hai … but anyways came up with this … read in ur free time and if u are extremeley bored or maybe when u are unable to fall asleep … :)

Zindagi kee is bhaag daud main
Bhool gaye hain sab
Chalte chalte rukna kya hota hai
Sach mein ..aisa bhee hota hai?

Ghar ab ghar nahin .. Makaan ab makaan nahin
Kamra apna hotel lagta hai
Bhool gaye hain sab
12 baje sona … 2 baje dopahar mein uthna
Sach mein ..aisa bhee hota hai?

Haagen daaz khaate hain 20$ mein
Kulfee khaate hain 5$ mein
Bhool gaye hain sab
50 paise kee ice cream aur 2 rupai kee softy
Sach mein ..aisa bhee hota hai?

Chalte chalte khaana khaate hain
Idhar udhar ghoomte tv dekhte hain
Bhool gaye hain sab
Shreeman shreemati ikkathe poori family dekhtee thee
Sach mein... aisa bhee hota hai?

Rishte bante hain raaton mein
Toot jaate hain din mein
Bhool gaye hain sab
Saccha pyaar kya hota hai
Sach mein … aisa bhee hota hai?

Zindagi kee is bhaag daud main
Bhool gaye hain sab
Chalte chalte rukna kya hota hai
Sach mein ..aisa hee hota hai

different looks over the years... 1

diwali nite out pics :)

aint that suit gorgeous !!!!!

the missing hand picture ..... courtesy photoshop skills of ma frens !!!

me and coco :)

thanks to the sistas for an amazing diwali night out :)

choices.....!!

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost wrote this .... i think im living this ... or infact a few of us do.... and those few i think are the daring souls ...

how many of us do have the heart and the guts to make these choices which majority of folks wouldn't? how many people will stand up and fight for the voice of their inner self .. their soul their conscience? very very few... priorities have changes.. self respect ..unless you are a big shit .. has all gone down the drain ... we as humans end up listening and following whatever we are told to do by anyone who we think is in a better state than us....

all ocomes down to choices ... coz at the end of the day its we who are accepting to choose those ways of life... and our inner self stays in denial.... and our heart stays in defiance ... and only our brain is struggling and trying to convince everything else for acceptance... 4 stages in one body .. ah well it sure is true if you think about it.....

we humans are distintively funny ...

i have no clue why im writing this ... coz nothings happened in my life thats made me write this or think about this ... jsut a random thought ....

and i think i know i have always ended up taking the road less travelled .... had a very different life thus far... unique would be the right word :) and blissful and blessed :)

im gonna continue my journey ... slowly and surely .... and surely one day .... ill tell my children and/or grandchildren with pride in my eyes and luv in my heart and a calmness in my head.... that its those roads i travelled which gave me the most beautiful treasures I have now.....slight change ..

I shall be telling this with a smile
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

life is a game...

life is nutin but a game ..
and as a player u just play...
smtime u win ..
smtimes you dont..

the idea is not to lift the trophy..
coz u lie in the grave
or burn to ashes...
the aim should be to hear
"well played mate"
which we rather wont...??

Light a candle.. say a prayer..make a wish

This one is for one of my best buddies here in Singapore... We go a long way .. been donkey years since I know her....

one of the most angelic girls I know.. and one of the sweetest persons around in my life... and the best choreographer I have knows.. she has choreographed each of our dance performances!!!

Her dad had a cardiac arrest during a game of soccer... and he has been in ICU on life support for about a week plus now... There was no oxygen to his brain for about 20 minutes post the attack... so the reason why he is on life support...

I close my eyes .. cross my heart.. and say a prayer for him ... I possibly cant feel what she is going through but i just hope she knows that I'm always there and so are my prayers for her, her dad and her family!

May god bless you my dear... and yes i say a prayer every morning... and anyone who reads this .. please do the same !!! :)

thanks guys !! to love, life, family and God... peace!

not sure what the title should be!! :p

Been really long since i sat down to write... blame it on no time... I'm just so occupied with so many things happening around in my life... but I'm enjoying it... :)

Beautiful stranger is heading back to jeddah soon..so will not be in regular touch with her..Will miss you my friend :) and wish you all the best for everything ! :)

Ko has been super busy but she is always there when i need her and its just wonderful to have a friend like her around :)

SK has been too busy preparing for her boy friends visit from UK.

My parents all out for my marriage!!

not sure if its indeed my parents or pressure from my relatives..lol!

Job has been hectic but loving it.. learning a lot!

Tuition's gonna end by the end of November..

gonna plan a holiday in November for a week... home?Thailand?Malaysia? not sure again

need to figure out what I wanna do when next year starts :) God will show me the way!! :)

Made a couple of new friends :)

decided to keep Fri nights and sat morning for myself and no partying on Friday nights for as long as i can resist! it was a lovely feeling yesterday waking up at 730 AM , all fresh and ready for action and just actually i was a lazy potato !! ;) NO ACTION whatsoever!

none of my teams have won a single game in the Champions league ... lol .. yeah I support all 3 ... just love them !!! what are the odds that none of them would give me a reason to smile.. hopefully later tonight I get a reason to!!! GO RCB!!!!

life? living? existing ?

lol ... i know sounds a sad topic.. but its been bothering me too much off late... thinking of lives of one and all ...our generation.. today's world... and imagining what the next generation kids are gonna go through....

darwinism--survival of the fittest... i think time to re-invent :) .. i was thinking everything has evolved .. why not this quote ...

it should be survival of the most fortunate!!!! what is it that diffferentiates all of us .. degrees from blah blah universities.. which are anyways just a piece of paper.. and most of us learn everything on jobs .. so what differentiates us ??

our personalities .. definite yes ...

our luck...definite yes...

our outlook ... ditto

our confidence..for sure

our dedication...yes for life

our ability to learn ..grow...evolve and adjust and adapt.. hell yes..

this is wat will make a difference ... have the requisite education for sure .. but do not neglect these other very critical aspects... guess Darwin just din see life this far far away .... when a second decides millions of dollars in the market ... and when a second decides your impression on others for a lifetime!!! :)

its these things that I personally believe... I only (singlish)...me and only me ....

this is what differentiates whether we are existing in our lives ..or living our lives... :)

you'll be amazed how these things actually make you enjoy your job..your lonely partyings or travels or whatever you do in life ... :) try smiling at your neighbour one morning or at a stranger in a lift... you just mite make someone's day ..... or best still..which someone did to me one good day ... a random stranger comes to me and offers chocolates... and i turned her down coz i dun eat sweet things ... 2 years hence... one of the ppl closest to me in my life !! oh well :)

open your heart ... embrace change and welcome kind souls ....live and rock on !!

im gonna sleep !!! :)

been ages....

first and foremost thanks to ko ... she said something which made me make a promise to myself that i will write as and when possible...there are things i know about myself but when u know another person realises it too .. its just too pleasing and soothing to your heart...

:) huggz ko :)

well my life now ... super busy... partying close to zero ... work close to 100 ....

but enjoying it ... very different ... packed weeks sunday to sunday .. the only sad part would be hardly any time to gym....

im loving it infact ..wanna get on with it .. and prove a point to myself that i belong somewhere better.... which is the place im working at ... and it sure is all worth the sacrifice.... :)

life goes one full circle doesnt it !!!!

and yeah .... finally i have this wonderful feeling inside my heart... this desire to love .. and want to be loved... i blame it on myself.. guess been wihtout love for 3 years has surely made me feel a bit empty eventually .. but i did enjoy dating and meeting new ppl but just that they were not for me ... oh well .. :) i know that will happen too ..... i wun write much today ... but will get back to this soon ... its about time :)

us gaaadi mein jaana...

unka aakar humse mil jaana

pyaar bhara muskurana

aur aankhon ka jagmaana ...

pyaar humne jaana

khuda humne maana ....

in name of love and god ..

good night :)

love her voice ...

at dinner at shahi maharani we requested for chalte chalte.. and her voice is Lata's carbon copy ..fell in love with it :)

the sensual saxophonic sms ringtone :)

Lol i find the conversation funny and bixie's smart ass comments as always .. contains vulgarities so please watch out and play only when alone :)

pics from the besties night out :)